14.11.2024 Helsinki, Finland

November 14, 2024
by Timo Tolkki

After having my morning walk I came to the room I rent for composing and writing.

The walk was nice and quiet, except when I left my home, which is next to a small highway, the sound of the numerous cars really bothered me although I was wearing fancy noise cancellation headphones.

My body, mind and psyche is at this moment like finely tuned instrument. 

Sounds that did not used to bother me, sound extremely loud now.

It was around 6am and as I paced along the road that was covered with yellow leaves of the Finnish Autumn,  could not help but realize how far we humans have gone in creating this mess that we call society and everything that it represents.

Just the amount of traffic, which will naturally just grow in the years to come, is enough for me to want to return to nature.

I have lived in this place about one year now. The location is excellent since it is close to the water that is my element.

In this morning I went to a place where I have not been before and I arrived to a seashore and I sat down for a moment and closed my eyes and started listening to myself. Relaxing in the inner peace that I have come to know so well lately.

It hasn´t come for free, it has taken from about 25 years, when I consdider that I started this journey that I am now on.

I hate to use the word “spiritual”, since that word has lost all its meaning with just numerous attempts to make money under different “how to methods”.

I do not believe a second to these. They are all nonsense. Nobody can tell or or guide you really in anything except if you are lucky enough to find a person that is helping you our of pure heart and not from the standpoint of ego, which really is the same as fear.

I am intend to write this blog, not really that regularily, but as I feel like.

As I sit by the shore in the darkness looking at the dark sea, I am thinking how powerful force nature is and how little we humans are.

I hope we realize how little we are before it is too late.